Insecurity

Dear God,

Suddenly end-of-years exam seems so real,
it's only 14 days left.
I cant help but feel insecured and scared.
I fear that I could not live up to everybody's expectation so much that I neglected Your expectation of me.
I know You dont want my good results,
all You want is for me to put You first in my life.
No matter how good my past 3 terms results are,
please help me to learn to depend on you.
Please help me to remember that all my achievements were given to me because of Your grace.

I pray that would You please be with me everyday as I study for my EOYs.
No matter what my EOY results may be,
Please help me to be thankful to You and help me handle my successes and failures properly.
Help me to find security in you rather than in my studies.
I would like to pray for my CG and other friends too,
please grant them wisdom and understanding when they are studying.
Please grant us peace in our hearts.

In Jesus'precious name,
Amen (:

Tenth Ave North - You Are More

Playmax'11

Me and Qing Le met first before going to meet the rest.
We were discussing how to introduce ourselves to the others.
We then made our way to cityhall station where I met Boon Suen & Rhonda.
While on the train, we played empire; theme was cartoon characters.
Hehe, Dorcas guessed that Im smurf at her first try.
She's amazingly good at this game every time!
Qing Le almost won (:
We walked a distance before reaching playmax.
We ate pasta then went to walk around the blog shops.

Soon we went to the hall, the stage performance was starting, at first it was just fun and all.
Then came the message, the sharing.
I was sitting right beside Qing Le in the hall.
As the speaker shared about Jesus, I stole occassional glances at her,
wondering what she was thinking then.
I prayed silently that her heart was opened to the sharing and that she would come to understand who Jesus is and what He did for us.
I really hope that she will have a chance to know this awesome God.
I knew she was listening intently, she had a serious look on her face.

After stagemax, we went to walk around again.
We went to eat ice-cream, bought some stuff and went to the busker.
He's so cool, I wonder how he does all those cool magic tricks and at the same time sharing the gospel through them (:
He had to keep on repeating his same tricks and his explainations to different groups of people yet he doesn't seem tired at all.
Lucille then said she, Elna & Dannica had to go to the toilet.
Me & Qing Le were supposed to wait by the tree near the food stalls.
My other friends were still shopping, they are so crazy about that & bought a whole bunch of stuff  ._. so normally they were not really by my side.


However, Qing Le told me she wanted to go into St.Andrew's Catherdral.
I agreed.
We wanted to go in by the main entrance but it was closed.
As we watched through the gate, we saw how beautiful it was inside.
The elaborately decorated walls, the high ceiling with the tainted windows, the long red aisle leading to the stage with the brown neat benches on both its sides.
It was like something out of the movies.
We mention about how beautiful it must be to walk down that aisle on your wedding day.
We were determined to go in.
We went around the catherdral and found a door.
We were hesitating whether to enter but we did anyway.
It was so quiet. It was practically silent.
At the same time so peaceful.
We sat at the first row.
I could feel God's presence. I knew she could too.
We would have stayed longer if we could but we left after awhile because Lucille was waiting for us.

After we met the rest we played games.
We played for only awhile because most of us had to go home already.
Before we left, Lucille shared with us "2 ways to live." (:
Then we went back home on train.

We smurf yami yoghurt!

La la lalala sing a happy song (:
The smurfs are so cute! I went to watch the movie with Sue Lun today (:
We each went to buy a jumbo size peach flavoured yami yoghurt.
Fine, I was the one who suggested to buy the jumbo size because I was frozen yoghurt-deprived for long D:
We even smuggle the yoghurt into the cinema and it was a success :D

We end up eating more than half of it before the movie started.
But the movie was funny, I kept laughing in the cinema.

After that we went to yoshinoya to have our lunch.

It's great that we finally got to watch a movie together after so long.
Guess we will have to wait until our year ends are over before we can see each other again.

So much things to say to each other but so little time!

Dear God,

Dear God,

Im sorry for the times when I said that I would change but I went on sinning.
Im sorry for the times when I broke my promises to you and disappoint you.
Im sorry for the times when I forgot about you,
I know that You are always waiting by my side,
waiting for me to reach out to take the Bible and read your Word.
Im sorry for the times when I seek the praises of others instead of yours.

Thank You for everyday that Im alive, so that I can live my life for you.
Thank You for always being with me.
Going through all the tough times I have in my life.
Thank You for working in my life and letting me know that You are always with me.
Thank you for your grace and blessings,
I could not have asked for more.
Thank you for your love.
Thank you for dying on the cross for me.

Please help me live my life as a testimony for you.

Being a leader

When I lead others,
I want to earn their respect by being a good leader.
Not one who goes around shouting at people to get their respect out of fear.

I still have a lot more to learn from God.

I pray that God will teach me how to be a good leader.
I want to listen to His voice so that he can guide me how to walk the path as a leader.
I should love others as myself first.
Put their interest before mine.
Rebuke them lightly for their sake and not bring them down or crush their self-esteem with my words.

Cantankerous

Cantankerous;
I guess there is no better word to describe me in a few years back.
When I went to look at my previous blog,
I realise that I was always complaining about something or someone in about almost every post :/
The way I talked was so... immature.
Gosh I feel so ashamed that I went to delete the whole blog.
I really hoped I changed for the better since then (: