you are bigger than any battle I'm facing

Lord I need you so much now
I feel so tired I don't know if I have the strength to go through this last lap.
As much as I don't show it or share it with many people, I'm weary Lord.
Please just let me know that you're there
to carry me through this.

Open our eyes and to see how to be in love, the world can't deny

Like torches in the night

The first DG leading session's over!
Picturing myself to stutter and stammer, I wasn't really looking forward to it.
The passage seems so dauntingly long, my points were all jumbled and was so many
points popping out everywhere. I just felt that I had to address everyone of them :o
I think I seemed a little bored because of the flu that I have, haahh though I tried
to be excited despite the nasal voice.

But Im so glad that I was able to do it eventually with God's strength (:
It was as scary as I thought it would be, mostly because everyone is so nice with their
comments and they are so participative (:
Im really encouraged by their comments but I know fully well that I have so much more to improve.
I definitely learn something new today (:

I need to work on my humanities, badly.
I can't get SBQ. It's so sad, I used to be able to do it :( sighhh
It's like I had a relationship with SBQ but yet we broke up, somehow ahahah.

Yes I should do that now.
now.
Time is running outtttt :(

The time will pass and beauty fades

I realized how I haven't been praying much, at least not as much
compared to the past. I miss how the joy of praying to the Lord.
It's quite ironic how I'm supposed to lead a Bible study in DG about the perseverance
in prayer.
It's not coincidental, it has to be God at work to tell me about how I should
do something about my prayer life.
As I was reading through the passages and analyzing each and every line of Luke 11:1-13,
I felt that God was speaking to me.
Thinking back, the absence of a prayerful life speaks of me trying to rely on myself and not God.
What was I thinking?
How can I doubt that God will bless me and hence, I should go around with the mentality thinking
that since God wouldn't give me what I want, I shall work for it and gain it on my on human effort,
regardless of whether He wants to give me or not.
No, it doesn't work that way.
Indeed, God does not bless me with what I want but He blesses me with what He thinks is best for me (:

As I got back my prelim results, I was... erm mostly neutral about it.
I was more caught up with my academic results in the past.
It's not that I don't bother about my results anymore, live with abandon and delude myself into thinking O levels is not coming.
No, it's just that in light of so many other things, it just doesn't seem so... I dont know.
In the past, there will always be this bitter feeling in me whenever I dont do well for a subject, I will
just go around with this feeling which makes me unhappy, uncomfortable and disgusted and then I will vow to work harder so I wont experience this form of failure again.
But this time, I really thank God that I dont feel this way anymore for prelims.
I thank Him that I improved in some subjects which I thought I can never do well in :o
It's a miracleeeeee.
Duh, im not some straight A student so I still didnt do well in some subjects BUT Im so thankful to the Lord
that I He has helped me to be joyful even when I dont do well  and to be genuinely happy for the friends who do well (: instead of wasting time feeling disappointed or counting the number of people which I disappointed. :/
Ahahah, now that I think of it, my attitude towards failure was so meaningless in the past, it got me nowhere.

As O level approaches, I  just want to walk with God side by side and face this battle together with Him .


"I am the vine; you are the branches. If you remain in me and I in you, you will bear much fruit; apart from me you can do nothing."


John 15:5

You're an overcomer

I just want to say that you have a really really really special place in my heart!
As I said before to you, 10 years down the road, when I look back to my secondary school
years, you will definitely be inside those memories. Simple reason: because you form a really big part of it!
I dont think I can ever forget you, no matter how hard I try ahahah.

Though our friendship went through really rough patches during sec 1 and plus
we had constant worries about how we will lose each other since we are no longer in the same class...
but as I look back now, I finally understood why God let that happen.
It's because of all these things that I cherish this friendship so much more
and learn how to be a better friend to you and to others.
We had to go through so much just to see how much we have grown from this friendship.
I know how much you have put into this friendship and how you're always there for me.
I dont know why but I can remember events quite vividly but never Geog statistics or History content
hahah so rest assured that  I really remember all the times you were there for me. really (:

I really enjoyed myself with you during youth camp last year!
It was like a marathon, after AN, we immediately went to youth camp the next day.
Hahaha, im so sorry to make you wake up so early just to go to youth camp early afternoon the next day.
Im so gladddddd we can grow spiritually together during the camp! (:
Don't you agree it was such an adventure?
Now that I think of it, I was with you for 8 days straight :o

SO THIS YEAR...
I hope you can go to youth camp with me again!
It's from 9-12 Dec
I wanted to invite you face-to-face but I didn't have a chance last week and Im so excited that I have to ask you before the next tuition hahah.
I reallyyyyyyy hopeeee you cannnn comeeeee, hehe let me know alright! (:

When you don't know what to say,

Just say Jesus!



It's one am, seeeee this is what you get for not doing your work and watching television instead >:
I really want to go on a movie marathon with my family after O levels and be a couch potato ahahah.
Okay maybe not the couch potato part but I really want to watch so many movieeeees.

Just hang on there, it won't be longggg.

Hope is what we crave

Woah, 30 more days and yet I am still not there yet. Can someone please just tell me that there's still enough time and it's not too late? Please, anyone. :/