Genesis of CNY

I'm at my grandma's house now
and I'm so full from all the Food.
I don't know how much exercise I have
to do before all the fat is gone hahah.

I can't believe it's CNY already.
it's so fast.
once it's over, then school will start soon :(
I haven't even ease into the Chinese new year mood yet...
did I mention I like CNY songs played in Christmas jingle Hahah.

I want my history to be Your legacy

When I first received my results,
hmm I was honestly disappointed with my Sciences.
The disappointment overwhelmed the joy of doing well in other subjects.
I guess it's because I spent a lot of time and effort on my Sciences.
It just  baffles me that I did well in humanities when I didnt spend as
much time on them and the fact that I have very little passion for them.
It's like a complete reversal of my prelim results :/

So it was a little conflicting when there were people congratulating me
for my results while I was feeling disappointed.
I didnt know what to feel then.

After speaking to my parents,
I think I should have been more grateful and thankful to God.
Yes, although it wasn't what I was aiming for but the fact that God
still chose to give me these results, I should be thankful
because I still couldn't have done it without Him.

A man's heart plans his way, But the Lord directs his steps.
Proverbs 16:9

After going through O levels and receiving back my results,
as I look back, Proverbs 16:9 really applies to me.
I had this goal and plan during O levels and
I thought that as long as I worked really hard,
I would be able to achieve my goal but I didnt in the end.
God really used this to remind me that indeed, He is the one in complete control
and that I have to depend on Him.

2014

Today marks the start of a new year!

Actually it's yesterday since it's past 12 now...

Amanda suggested to do new year resolutions!
I havent been the most reflective person so it's good to actually
sit down and think out my resolutions.

1. Love God and His Word more.
I really need to find back the joy of knowing Him through His Word.

2. Be punctual.
I keep believing that I can reach on the dot, sometimes I do, sometimes
I fail terribly. This needs to be changed >:

3. Be more patient.
Esp towards my family. I dont think being stressed or tired
gives me a reason to be annoyed at anybody.
THIS CERTAINLY NEEDS TO BE CHANGED AS WELL.

4. Be neat and tidy.
Organize my notes into files etc

5. Workout.
The need to start exercising is bugging me hahah.

6. Be more outgoing.
Im more of an introvert but I really love making friends
so it's a little contradictory.
So I always don't initiate a "hi" when someone walks past me
or Im simply oblivious when someone else does it and then they gradually stop :(
Maybe I lost a few friends because of this :/ who knows?

7. Be more appreciative
of the things and people around me.

8. Don't be easily emotionally-affected by everything.
Even my mum says so.
Im too easily emotionally affected by events or people around me,
whether is it the things they say or the little things they do.
Its good in a sense that Im sensitive to how people feel and bad in a way
that I will misinterpret how someone is really feeling because I tend to overthink.
Moreover, because im easily emotionally-affected, I tend to use my emotions
and not logic to judge what I should do in most situations.
I have decided that this is not really healthy.
I should learn how to let go and not be affected by other people.

9. To know myself better.
I think I know some people better than myself.
I saw a video once which challenged people to spend 10/20/30 mins or even
an hour with themselves.
After that video, I know I need to do it to know myself, to know what I want,
to know what are my goals and what I truly want.

10. Stop being passive

11. I will not procrastinate
(hopefully)

12. Be more confident and sure of myself.
My identity should be found in Christ, not in how others view me to be.

13. Have my own opinions
I need more clarity in my thought processes :0

14. Keep all the meaningful friendships I have formed !